I really wanted to take a moment to thank everyone that has emailed my and posted comments for my husband and I to read. I have been so over emotional this last week that I have not even been able to write anyone back and post anything. My little baby is getting bigger and bigger each day and I just cant even think of how my life would be without her. Here I am being so unhappy about her condition I sometimes....well most of the time forget how lucky we are to have her. She is God's gift to our family and instead of being so sad about what she has facing her and her life I need to remember how happy I am that her is here with us.
And... I am just as lucky to have all of you. I have been amazed at all of the love that everone has shown our family without even knowing us. Thank you all. I am sorry for not writing back to each and every person/family on an individual basis but I am comming around. Please be patient.
Love,
Heather, Eric and Kalyn Cords
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Hi Heather,
Congratulations, she is beautiful. Enjoy her because it goes fast. I don't check this site out that much anymore but I read your post last night and you reminded me so much of myself last year. I thought all day of what I wanted to say to you. My Shelby is 16 months old now. She was born with pffd of her right leg. She is also missing her right fibula and her right foot. Basically she has a little right leg that is tappered and comes to just above her left knee. We did not know about this until she was born and I had 2, 1 1/2 hour ultrasounds. I don't think I was suppose to know.
I know how scared you are right know...I was terrified. I also had really bad post partum as well. My marriage suffered a great deal those first few months. We are stronger than ever now, but try to stay connected with your husband right now. You guys need each other.
First of all, you must realize that YOU DID NOTHING WRONG! Sometimes these things happen, and we have no control. The no control part is what ate at me the most. I lived on this website, and others last March through August, driving myself crazy looking for answers, looking for others. Once I found people who had been there and done that, I felt like I had the crystal ball I needed.
I did not focus on Shelby like I should have for months. I questioned everything. Will she crawl? Will she stand? Will she sit? Will she walk? How? How will she do these things? Well she's done them all. She started crawling at 6 month, standing at 9 months, sitting on her own at 10 months, and walking with a walker at 14.5 months. She got her prosthesis at 11 months. I have my moments, but they are few and far between now. There has been so much that I have learned, and so many wonderful people I have met...all because of Shelby. I see the world a little differently now. More clearly and simply.
Believe, although it is hard right now because she is so small, that she will be OK. Once her personality comes through, and she starts to develop into more of a little person you'll have less and less time to think about her condition. You'll be worrying about, has she eated? Did she poop? Does she need a bath?
I wouldn't trade my girl for anything, and I couldn't imagine her any other way. You'll see, everythig will be fine. Remember, this is coming from a girl who last summer thought this was the end of the world. I didn't think things would ever be OK again. Now, things are better than OK. I love my life, and my baby girl. She amazes me everyday. Next summer we are trying for number 2, so Shelby can have someone to beat up!
I have babbled enough. Email me anytime if you need to talk, or even vent. I check it everyday (rachelekovar@hotmail.com).
Keep your chin up. How you feel right now is just a short time in your life. You have a wonderful time ahead of you.
Rachele Montrose