Going through the stages of amputation

My name is sinead and i'm sixteen. i have PFFD on both of my legs but my left leg is longer. I was born to a diabetic mother. When i was born my mother didnt really know what decison to make. The doctors were trying to lean her into amputation. She opt. not to, she wanted me to make the decision when i was old enough. so for sixteen years, i've wore a lift. It's been very hard. with the lift, i can't wear normal clothes only long pants. by that, i've become self-conscience and developed low self- esteem. I wouldn't feel comfortable in large crowds or at school either. So at the end of March, i finally told my mother i wanted to do something about it. We went to shriners in florida, and they said that i had three options. One: being leg lengthening , Two: wearing a prothesis to make it the same length as my other leg, and Three: amputation. we did the x-rays, and found that i wasn't a condidate for lengthening because hip socket wasn't strong enough. i would have to have my femur repaired because it wasn't attached to the socket. It would repair a surgery before my actual lengthening. My mom didn't want me to do it during school. then we went on to the other option: a prothesis. I went to get fitted. In the begining, i thought nobody would be able to see the prothesis through my jeans. but it's a little noticable. All i could think about was " great another thing to worry about". I'm all about how I look. Maybe when I graduate I will have the lengthen done. It's a year away. I heard that it really hurts. What complications go along with it? I know you're prone to infections and you muscle bei ng damaged. I would like some feedback to those who have gone through it. Oh yeah, is it harder for an adult to go through it?